I.AM. EXHAUSTED.

I mean so.tired.


I'm so tired that today in the Publix parking lot I for real contemplated taking a nap in my van and not getting groceries. (what's more important, food or sleep?? hummm....)


Tonight, as I was putting dishes in the dishwasher to run it for the third time today, answering how to spell "favorite" and begging Asher to stop drumming on every.single.service. of our home, I had a moment where I just began to plead with the Lord for rest. (multi-tasking is just a given with 5 children)


It doesn't come easy around here. Mornings come early and nights end really late. There is an endless stream of work to do and never, ever is my "to do" list complete. In my dishes tonight, the Lord and I were conversing.


Lord, is this because I've taken on too much? Said "yes" when I should have said "no?" Spinning my wheels on things of this world and not You? And the word I got, was that no, this is not the case. Honestly, I don't feel over committed,  Lord. I'm not overly involved, my work is not too much. It's just LIFE, that has me worn.out.


He gently reminded me:

“The LORD your God is giving you rest and has granted you this land.” {Joshua 1:3} 

He has given me this land. This home, these amazing little people, and this husband of mine, HE has brought me here.  And a journey is tiring.  God rarely calls us to the "easy."  And part of His calling on my life right now is here.

 And it can be exhausting.

The Lord brought our sweet friends, Matt and Amber, to my mind at the sink. They are serving in Africa with their young girls. "Do you ever think they get tired?" Yes, Lord, I can imagine they do.  Weary? Probably so.  But they are following a call. And tired and weary, they are just a part of the package.

The Lord knew we would get weary. That's why He said, "Come to Me, all who are burdened and weary and I will give you rest."  

That is the real rest we, I, need.  Just a few moments, to rest in Him. To be renewed of His strength. So He can lead us to the NEXT thing He's calling us too. 

And praise the Lord, HE never ever tires. 

 “the LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. God will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.” {Isaiah 40:28}